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You Are Already Enough
I am not pretty enough. Black enough. Thin enough. Smart enough. Rich enough. Good enough. Brave enough. Lovable enough. Simply put, who and what I am is not enough.
These are very unkind thoughts I’ve heard others say and sadly, have said to myself in the past. To all of that, I say–
ENOUGH.
You are enough just as you are. You are so enough, right this very moment.
You might scoff and say, “Yeah, right! I need to change <insert desired quality here> and then I’ll be enough.”
This just isn’t true. You don’t have to believe it yet, but I challenge you to work toward this.
How can you do this? You can start by “acting as if”. This term is really popular in the recovery world and I’m a big proponent of it. How about you act as if you are enough, right this very second? What would your life look like? Here are a few steps you can take to act as if you’re enough so that one day you awaken and realize you are:
- Stop the negative self-talk. I get how hard this can be. When you notice that you’re beating yourself up, ask, “Is this something I would say to my best friend? Would I tell my five-year-old self this?” When you tell yourself loving things, it starts a magnificent healing process. Practice saying five nice things to yourself in the mirror today. One day you’re going to believe them, too!
- Do something that you’ve always wanted to do but felt you couldn’t because you weren’t enough in some way. Go back to school. Ask that yummy person out that you can’t stop thinking about. Train for that half-marathon. Life doesn’t begin ten or 100 pounds from now, when you’re in a different tax bracket, or when you’ve reached some arbitrary milestone. Do what you want today!
- Reflect on all you have accomplished. Sure, you may not be where you want to be, but I bet you’re a lot farther than you give yourself credit for. Celebrate how far you’ve come! It’s all about progress, not perfection.
I started my practice with a very specific person in mind: someone who thinks she is not enough, someone who thinks she might be more than she is acknowledging and just needs a little support to manifest her magnificent self. When you start acting as if you’re enough, one day something wonderful will happen–you’ll know you are. I can’t wait to see how your life blossoms once you do.
Three Financial Therapy Questions to Ask Yourself
I went to a training last week about trauma, addiction, and finances. I really loved it and learned so much. One of my greatest takeaways was the idea that any problems you have with money represent the barriers you have between yourself and living your best life.
Whoa. Take a second to think about that. Any problems you have with money represent the barriers you have between you and your best self.
That’s huge to me! What could that be for you? I know a lot of people who are fearful of money and they would probably admit that they’re pretty fearful in life. One could also be angry or resentful. Maybe someone could be too reliant. The truth is that most people (I would wager) do not have healthy relationships with money. So what’s holding them back from fulfillment.
I think that when working on improving your relationship with finances, it’s helpful to go back in time. Here are some questions to get started:
- What messages were you taught about money when you were young?
- What did you hear about money when you were young? (This is different from #1. We hear a lot as kids that is not actually told to us. Maybe you heard conversations between your parents. Maybe you remember a family member stressing over bills at the dinner table? What did those memories teach you?)
- What is the function of money in your relationships as an adult?
Money does not have to rule your life. True, we can’t live with it and we can’t live without it, but there are ways to make sure it doesn’t drive all of your behaviors, relationships, and goals.
Three Reasons It’s Okay to Be Cracked
“Blessed are the cracked, for they shall let in the light.”
I have heard this quote quite a few times and attributed to a number of people: Groucho Marx, Spike Milligan. The first time I heard it, I fell in love. So often, we try to act as if nothing is wrong, as if we’ve never been hurt. “Keep a still upper lip” and so on. The truth is, life can hurt sometimes. You can feel hopeless and helpless. I think we’ve all been there at some point. I know I have.
One of my dear friends once told me, when I was going through a particularly painful time, “it’s okay to not be okay”. I don’t know if she realized how much that changed my life. That powerful statement gave me what I’d always needed–permission to hurt, permission to not always act like everything’s okay. It also gave me permission to ask for help. What a gift that five-word sentence was for me. I try to pass it to others myself now.
What can being cracked give you? A lot of things, honestly. However, I think that there are three top gifts that being cracked can offer:
- The chance to be put back together again. Sure, when you’re building yourself back up, there will be some bumps and bruises, a few battle scars. You won’t ever look the same. But how cool is that? Personally, I find scars beautiful. You have been hurt. You have been struck down in some way, but here you are, standing. Wow. You are magnificent.
- You have little crevices for light. How else can we accept and absorb goodness if we’re not open, a little vulnerable ourselves? Vulnerability is so hard. It makes me feel “itchy”, like I need to hide and wait until the other person has forgotten how human I am. Being a little cracked can be wonderful. When we’re vulnerable, we ask for and receive help. We have deeper connections. We find greater meanings in our interactions and our lives. Brene Brown has done a lot of great work with vulnerability and I fully agree that to feel connection with others, we must embrace our vulnerability. The nooks and crannies created by being cracked lend opportunities for connection, fulfillment, and growth.
- The light you let in can help someone else. Okay, not everyone is a super softie social worker like me, I know. But (bear with me) this world can be made a better place when we help others. Think about someone you know who has had a huge impact in your life. Were they perfect? I doubt it. Why are they impactful for you? When I think of all those who have impacted me, not one of them isn’t cracked in some way. They grew from something and their lives have changed me for the better. Just think of where you could be in one, five, ten years. You may be impacting someone to heal in the same beautiful way you have.
Mary Oliver is one of my favorite poets. She writes:
“Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift.”
Don’t ever be ashamed of feeling cracked. All one can do is sit up, assess the damage, and with fierce self-love, start to put herself back together again. You deserve the work that will take and you deserve how much better you will be for it.
TGIF (Thank Goodness It’s February)
January is a time for resolutions. I think that a new year can be a fun way to assess where you are, where you’ve been, and where you’d like to go. With resolutions come, specifically, diet goals.
January dieting or weight loss goals make me itchy. Why? I come from a non-dieting approach, both personally and professionally. I believe that diets don’t work. Dieting only leads to unhappiness, self-hate, and sometimes even more unwanted weight gain.
Lots of diets have ended by now. You may still have that gym membership and have lots of diet books that are lying unread in your home. That’s okay. You haven’t failed because you “failed” at your diet. If anything, that diet has failed you. If you’re like me, the thought of another diet makes you anxious and frustrated.
Maybe it’s time for a new, much more loving approach to your body and life. The only way to find peace with food and your body is to (gasp!) actually make peace with food and your body. What would life look like for you if food and your weight had a rational place in your life? What would life look like if you didn’t go from diet to diet? Perhaps it’s time to give it a try.
When I was thinking up this blog entry, my partner said “yes, exactly. Now that February is here, people can start working on who they want to be and not what society expects of them.” I love this. Here’s to moving toward what you know is right for your life.
In With The New
Happy New Year! I find the New Year to be an exciting time for most people. It’s a time of reflection and hope for new things to come. For years, I have not made New Year’s resolutions; rather, I have set intentions. Last year’s intention was “Presence”–this is a daily challenge for me as I’m so often looking to the future. Even after this intention is completed with the end of 2017, I will try consistently at remaining in the now and enjoying who and what is right in front of me.
I love to journal and encourage everyone I know to do so as well. I was talking to my sister about this just today and what is so great about it is that it helps make what is swimming around in your head tangible. It makes it easier to say “this is what I’m feeling, this is where I am”. In getting myself ready for 2018, I spent time today journaling about what was great in 2017 and what hard but valuable lessons I’ve learned from the not-so-great. Personally, I learned that when I live my life afraid of what could happen, I am not able to experience what is happening. I learned that I have to remain mindful of my self-care and that I love myself and deserve the time and energy it takes to be fiercely loving toward myself. I often (and sometimes too much, according to them) ask my loved ones and clients “how are you taking care of yourself?” I want to ask myself that more often from this point forward.
With 2017 on its way out, it’s time to set an intention for 2018. When journaling today, the word finally came to me: FEARLESSNESS. 2018 is the year to live my life without fear. I have been asked by my therapist what it would mean to be truly brave. I’m so excited to say it’s time to find out.
What’s your intention for this year? What are your plans to live according to a word or phrase that excites and inspires you? I cannot wait to see what 2018 brings me! I would love to help you figure out what 2018 can mean to you as well.
Happy New Year! Here’s to a fearless 2018.
What Kermit the Frog Taught Me About Growth
Something always happens to me around December 15. Ten days before Christmas, I wake up with sugarplums dancing in my head. My Christmas spirit is here! (I have to admit I’m a bit of a Grinch until then.)
That means it is time to watch my favorite Christmas movie and the only one I must see every year, The Muppet Christmas Carol. I just adore this movie: the Muppets and Charles Dickens, who could ask for anything more? In this lovely, heartfelt film, Kermit the Frog (as Bob Cratchit) comforts his family with:
It’s all right, children. Life is made up of meetings and partings. That is the way of it.
When I watched this movie for the first time as a 10-year-old, I was just as touched by this line as I am today. I cried when I watched it just this evening!
The holidays can be very stressful. My work has taught me that life can be made up of the meetings and partings that can make reconnecting with our families, old memories, and hometowns tough. Like Kermit tells us, life will be full of changes, whether we work for them or they just happen to us. It is the way things are and we can choose to move with grace through them or resist the changes, only hurting ourselves in the process.
During the holidays, I make sure to practice good self-care: walking, Me Time, asking for help, and journaling are a few things that help me during this season. What self-care techniques help you when you are overwhelmed?
With the holiday season upon us, it will soon be a new year. When you reflect upon 2017, do you feel gratitude for where you’ve come? Excitement about what’s next? Or would you like to make sure that 2018 has fewer challenges than this year did? With this year winding down, this is a great time to make a commitment to yourself. 2018 is a great year to work through what has been holding you back from your best and most joyful self.
If you’d like to discuss how to make 2018 your best year yet, let’s chat.